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Les Miserables “I dreamed a dream” |
Experiencing the ring
The weight of the world on my shoulders, thunder storms in my head, emotional roller coasters roam my soul. I see and hear but cannot fathom, cannot process, cannot take in anymore.
I know what needs to be done to bring peace to my systems again, but there’s no energy to follow through. Nevertheless , I barely make it there summoning every ounce of will lurking at the bottom of my heart.
Upon arrival, I’m exalted by the vast spaces around me, my vision takes seconds to adapt , to stretch to meet the ever far horizon, to find relief in the magnificent blue and green space . Just then, when I close my eyes to take it all in, that my senses are gently hit and awakened by the sweet smell of freshly cut grass! To that pleasant aroma I open my eyes again only to be bombarded by an overwhelming number of amazing colours, patterns, details, and shapes ,each is nothing less than a master piece of the creator .My heart skips a beat and I feel the tears rushing to my eyes witnessing all this captivating beauty.
On that note, I’ve already entered the ring !
The first round, I master all my power and consciously put one foot infront of the other creating a sequence of steps. At first it’s one heavy step after the other, but as I get into a rhythm, the steps get lighter and lighter. As if I’m being gently pulled by some invisible force.
The second round, my steps already lighter and somewhat faster, I notice that I’m breathing now ! Step by step I begin to get allured to synch with my breath and leave the distractions around me …step by step , breathing in and out…
The third round, faster yet relaxed steps, in sync with my steady breath, now I’m also focusing on an object at the horizon, suddenly I notice that the storms in my head had fallen into organized tracks .
By the end of the third round, I feel like an orbiting planet. Imagine the space outside ,now observe an orbiting planet. How quiet, and calm it is, how everything is in place although it’s surrounded by exploding starts, bombarded by meteors and objects, despite all the little details going on inside it and on its surface. It orbits steadily, rhythmically, peacefully, pulled and pushed by forces in equilibrium preserving its continuous graceful movement.
Over the past three rounds I’ve been feeling the increasing momentum, and now a gentle surge of energy is rushing through my systems, so by the beginning of the fourth round, my feet start to part more with the ground, my breath is rhythmic but not so deep ,my muscles start to contract into a super supporting suit. I feel lifted and my feet get lighter by the step.
With beat being communicated from my ears to my systems, I feel that little blood pump inside, hmm…I feel like I’m getting back to life with blood rushing through my veins, nourishing everywhere it reaches, my temperature rises ,I feel my face is about to explode with blood and heat, that’s when immediately I’m cooled down by beads of sweat running down my skin.
Now all my systems come together, working in harmony, pushing me up and forward. Like a race car driver, I demand more of my machines as I push more to examine their limits.
The fifth round, I want to experience flying, I feel ready to fly. I increase speed, muscles contract into “standby to take off” shape, the wind is hitting my face and yet it’s hard to breath..I feel my lungs painfully trying to expand !
As I push even more to take off, I no longer hear each instrument playing individually, I no longer hear, I FEEL the harmony, I feel the energy building up…I FEEL!!
In this ecstasy, I think I took off for very brief moments when I found myself breathing through a straw ! I pushed through, I felt liberated as my negative emotions surfaced, manifested itself in more speed and energy and disappeared into thin air. I kept going until…I had to cut down on speed and return once again.
Took me a little while to cool down, and return to default mood, but this time when my soul returned, it found a different container, a clean ,tidy, peaceful one, with harmonious ,organized, uncluttered, sensible systems. The weather inside was just perfect, with no signs of storms or roller coasters.
My breath slowed down and became deeper once again, and then all the systems followed into normal mood as I reached the final round.
As I walked the final round, I was overwhelmed by a feeling of satisfaction and thankfulness. As I took more steps, from the bottom of my heart and soul, I was thankful…for my senses and being capable of receiving and appreciating the beauty around, thankful for my arms and legs, thankful for my lungs and my heart ,for the blood running through me and the vessels carrying it. I was thankful for being ABLE, and for the opportunity to have such experience. I feel privileged , I feel blessed with an incomprehensible amount of blessings that I can’t even count in a life time.
On the final round, and with each step I thank Allah and beg mercy for not being able to appreciate my blessings at times, I beg forgiveness for the faults I’ve made against the most generous and merciful.
I exit the ring with these words accompanies by a happy tune playing in my ears J
I left my job, my boss, my car and my home
I’m leaving for a destination I still don’t know
somewhere nobody must have duties at home
And if you like this, you can follow me
So let’s go
Follow me
And let’s go
To the place where we belong
and leave our troubles at home
Come with me
We can go
To a paradise of love and joy
A destination unknown
Now I won’t feel those heavy duties no more
My life gets better now I finally enjoy
Yes all the people wanna come here and so
Come on and join us you can do that now
Let’s go
Follow me
And let’s go
To the place where we belong
and leave our troubles at home
Come with me
We can go
To a paradise of love and joy
A destination unknown
We left the city, the pollution, the crowd
The air is clear, the ocean’s blue, I love that sound
we’re happy for this destination we found
And if you want this, you can follow me
Let’s go
Follow me
And let’s go
To the place where we belong
and leave our troubles at home
Come with me
We can go
To a paradise of love and joy
A destination unknown
(Song: Destination unknown ,Calebria)
By: Amel Eid
| — | Paulo Coelho |
The eternal question…Wouldn’t you agree that it also applies to so many things in life?
Do you feel like you want to get married so you go with that intent to look for potential partners? or do you meet someone you feel like spending the rest of your life with and then you feel like getting married??!
Now let’s make it more challenging, What if you neither have the desire to get married, you don’t see yourself in this context, you are not even remotely attracted or intrigued by anyone for that matter or any matter, nor are you looking for potential partners or attractive or interesting potential partners…
You’re merely satisfied with your current social status, in fact, happy about it, career focused and planning for goals to learn , visit new places, get involved in more activities , all which are very far from the idea of being in a special relation with someone let alone being married to that person.
And then out of the blue, when you least expect it, comes along a person who is genuinely interested in you and wants to get to know you better with very clear intent of marriage should things go well.
No, you’re not attracted to that person, no your ideas about marriage are not lingering about, But….something is stopping you from saying a definite and absolute NO.
That person has some signs of genuine decency, good morals, honesty, dependable, and seems interested in you,and took couragous steps towards showing and proving it. All are quite rare qualities in my world !
So now, what would you do? give it a chance? or stand your ground and you don’t get into the storm ?
If you stand your ground, are you going to be able to carry through for the rest of your life? or are you,at some point, going to regret it and wish you had made a different choice?
And if you get into the storm, is it because you really want that? or because you’re afraid you might not get a better chance??
Is this really a choice??
Are you looking for only a good chance or are you looking for someone specific? a special feeling? something you go into with extreme doubt? or with joy and contentment?
Is this person the one but you just didn’t give it a chance or is there no such thing as “The one”??
Letting go is easy but is it the wise thing to do??!
Tired of thinking?? So am I :(
